righteously | How's My Driving?

According to the anon world, leaving you love notes all the fucking time in a public venue is just going to be hurtful to your reputation or some shit like that, so I thought I'd bring it here. Better to give you words just for you, anyway.

I don't know if I can ever say enough. To you, about you, in favor of you. But I endeavor to try because you're special and letting you know that is important to me. You're important to me. And I like seeing you happy.

You're so sweet and talented and giving and those qualities are so rare to find. You're humble. So humble. And while you deserve all the accolades, especially those with regard to role play, you're always unassuming and never demanding. You're always making your best effort and gaming with you is an experience, not just a pleasure. There has yet to be a thread I've stalked where you haven't made the other person clearly feel like they're at the center of the universe.

There are so many things I want to say, but I can't be sure they're come out eloquently or coherently. I want to try, though.

You're beautiful and lovely and amazing. You always make me smile, even when you're having a less than stellar day. The world brightens because you're in it. I want nothing more to give back to you that light you provide others. For that, my goal is to always give you someone you can go to, someone who will listen, someone who'll help put you up front once in a while. That's me, if you ever need or want my help.

I hope you never grow sick of hearing these things. I never want to stop saying them. I doubt I'll ever stop thinking highly of you because you've left a deep, beautiful impression, like being pressed with flowering vines.

Really, I could go on forever. About your characterization and dedication and the way you made me love a character that I just refused to give the time of day for years. I've probably said it all, but it's always worth repeating.

So, yes. I love you. And thank you. Forever and ever. I will always be there for you, no matter what. So, even if it's been 10 years and we've lost contact for some reason, remember that. I'll always be on your side. <33

[This rambling brought to you by drinking mimosas all day and realizing how much I adore you. Don't you judge me. :| ]

I don't even know what to say, man. You say the loveliest things and I'm so bad at reciprocating. Honestly, though, I'm honored and speechless and I don't... I just adore you, man. That's all. You, and your writing, and your soul, and like everything. Thank you, seriously.

It's been 9 months since I left my last message here, and you know what? Nothing's changed, except maybe how we interact on a day to day, week to week, month to month basis.

I'll start with characterization, because I left if mostly unaddressed in the last comment. There has never been a better, more true to form Dean than yours. The blessed nuances are what made him so very special, and that's in some part his draw in fandom, sure, but a much larger draw is your understanding of his character and the depth he needs to possess in order to be more than just a monster hunter with daddy issues.

There's really no length with which I wouldn't speak to your skills and abilities with Dean (and all your characters, lbr), and I think that's pretty unanimous amidst our peers.

It might be cheesy, but I've always been sentimental. Always. We've had a lot of good times. We've shared so many words and stories. Hours of Mafia. It's easily my favorite CR between Blake and Dean in every capacity. My absolute favorite. Hands down. I've read everything and re-read it again, and still I find things that take my breath away. It's still every bit as compelling as when we wrote it.

It's been wonderful, it's been perfect. I can never thank you enough for playing with me. Thank you, thank you.

As for the rest: it still holds true. The way we participate in this world and in each other's lives has changed a lot, even in just nine months, but there isn't a part of me that wouldn't still do for you in any capacity necessary. I'll be here, you know? I love you, and that won't ever change.

Nevertheless, I'll miss you in game. And I'll miss Dean. No doubt, I'm not alone in either of these things, so know you've touched a lot of people.

Thank you, again, dearest. Truly, the best of times.

[ This rambling brought to you by the wrong journal (yet again) and also the letter P. ]

I was so confused by your journal, it took me ten solid minutes to read this because I kept stopping to go, "...anus?"

Which is a horribly ineloquent reply to such a lovely sentiment. I have always and will always appreciate the wonderful and arguably undeserved words you leave me, and never doubt that you're one of the best people I've ever met. Giving up the Dean/Blake CR was one of the hardest things I've had to do in RP, and I already regret it.

Thank you for everything, darling.

I won't pretend I didn't feel a ~~little~~ lot of amusement while reading this here reply. Truly, I seized the moment when choosing this name for dear Brad. No regrets: it makes me laugh every time I see it.

And that's going to be the theme, I think. No regrets. As hard as it is to say "goodbye," it doesn't remove any of the wonder or amazement I've felt over what we've managed to build together. It was rarely ever planned, but somehow it always worked, and there's no lack of beautiful things shared between these characters, be it laughter or fighting or fucking or dancing. (Okay, well, maybe not dancing, but maybe some day.)

Blake's seriously going to miss Dean. I can't even begin to contemplate his reaction when he finally steps outside the denial. He may never stop believing Dean — his Dean — will come back. According to Philip, there's a place to meet about that, and it's called the bar. And really, that's just the way of things when someone's family (and it's not like we don't all know that already).

I really can't complain. Even if things didn't always go as planned, it was a hell of a ride and I am so much better for it.

That being said, if you're ever feeling up to it, I'd love to finish the last thread we started at eway. No big deal if it's just too much for you to handle, but I really think there's a lot to be gained there, at least in those two understanding each other a little more than ever before.

Think about it, but no pressure, as always.

Otherwise, I'm sure we'll see each other out there. It's hard for me not to immediately tag anything you put your stamp on, lbr, but everyone deserves a little space. I'll be here when you want me or need me, IC and OOC. All you've got to do is ping.

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